I live in an obviously ordinary, simple, complicated and not so good life at this very moment. I am happy but that’s just what you see in me outside. I am good at faking emotions. I pretend a lot of times. I can pretend to be happy, even if deep inside of me is screaming and hurting.
Many people come and go into my life. I am so lucky that I have friends whom I can depend the sorrows, hurts, problems and heartaches I have. However, sometimes, the person, whom you trusted and thought that will be there when you need the most suddenly changed gears. I mean, if your friend is moving away from you without any idea of what his/her reason is. I’m saddened by what’s going on, but I know life goes on…it needs to move forward.
It’s funny that of all the people I rely on, I didn’t expect that you’ll change that much. Hell I care now!
Life’s biggest challenge in me came out of nowhere without warning. My family…I love my family, they’re my wall that protects me in so many ways, they’re my greatest position in life. I can’t stand looking at any of my family members having so much worries on what the future may bring to us. Most especially to my Mother. I know how she’s feeling this time. I just keep on telling her, that I won’t give up on this so easily. We’ll never give up…We must find ways to survive.
God didn’t give this tough challenge in me without any reasons. He knows that I can get out of this situation and live life the way it is. I don’t blame Him…I just want Him to guide me and give me peace of mind. I guess, that’s what I need at this very moment.
I just had a high blood today..so maybe I need to go to sleep now and cool down. Hehe
Have a happy weekend everyone!
Bevs
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