Nobody’s perfect, that’s a fact. People tend to say exactly what they feel, but do they really tell what’s inside of them? I’m not sure if any of you experience such thing like that. I, myself ever done that. Not only once, but most of the time.

I sometimes fake my self, what I’m feeling just to avoid conflict to someone. My friends always ask me whether I’m really that ok when they start to ask me personal questions. I always say “yes I’m ok.” But they don’t seem to believe. They say my eyes tell it all. Well, I don’t know.

Just yesterday when we hang out. I told them that we’ll meet. Just nothing, drinking or chatting will do. It’s so unusual for me to do that. I don’t usually set up an appointment to my friends. They all wondered, asked themselves, what is going on? It’s so funny when I arrived, they looked at me and asked “Are you ok? What’s your problem?”. I admit, I’ m so tired of hearing that question over and over again. If I’ll say YES, they don’t seem to agree still and if they do, they’re still in doubt.

Well, I guess no matter how I hard I try to keep it by myself, they can tell. Friends seem to feel the real emotions inside you, aren’t they? Coz I believe they’re right. There’s something that’s been bothering me for the past few days. I just want to live life and pretend. But sometimes, I just can’t seem to keep it. It shows…No matter how I keep on denying.

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