Yesterday, the hostage drama initiated by a Philippine Ex-cop named, Rolando Mendoza was a scene that I wish would never happen again. Around 25 people on the bus mainly HongKong Nationals were captivated for 11 hours. It was a sad day as 8 hostages died after the highly anticipated hostage taking. But could the situation be diverted? Were there any dead hostages if we did executed the negotiation? Or if the Media and the Police played their parts, will there be crime?

As a Filipino, I felt sad and disappointed for what I saw on TV. I can say that the Police authorities did the biggest mistake ever. And why would I think that way?

First, if they only let Mendoza’s brother free and didn’t accused him for being accessory to the crime, then he shouldn’t start firing. Second, there was no negotiator for 6 hours nor anyone who is thinking a way to talk to the hostage taker. Third, what triggered them to go near the bus and and started smashing and breaking the doors and window? As they started throwing tear gas inside the bus? A single statement made by an escaped bus driver telling them that no one is alive inside? And they believed it that fast?! They didn’t think, they had no options they were irresponsible.

The media somehow should know when they should cover the event. How did Mendoza know about what the authorities did to his brother which started him from firing? Isn’t he heard it on news on TV or in the radio? It’s like watching circus…Media are covering each and every move of what’s happening outside where Mendoza is monitoring.

My heart is grieving from what our authorities did. And for our government, they are like trashes who are hiding from their comforts. I don’t understand why the President didn’t make an appearance or even condemn the hostage taking while it’s still going on. Where was he by the way? Sitting next to his dumb advisers?

I felt ashamed. I can see how CNN and BBC and media networks all over the world covering the events and it’s like letting the world knows that we FAILED.

I am proud to be a Filipina, but with what happened yesterday, somehow I felt I wish I could be someone else.

*I am praying for the souls of the hostages who were killed yesterday. May you rest in peace.

Unlike many of you, I didn’t grew up with my father by my side. He left for work abroad to sustain our daily needs and finance our studies, four of us. For 13 years, even if he is not here to see us grow nor guide us, he always check us out by calling or texting just to be updated with our lives.

His sacrifices is to us is huge. Sometimes I come to think so many things… What ifs and whys. But at the end of the day, it’s for us, he did it for us and it’s complicated.

Next year will be another chapter of my life. And everytime I tell him that “I am getting married next year!” and all he has to do is to keep quite for a while and say, “Do you really love him? Does he love you with all his heart”. And sometimes it sounds like he doesn’t want me to! Haha. Don’t worry Tatay I won’t let you down.

Yea I know, I understand, I am his only daughter. On my wedding, I’ll make sure he will be at my side walking down the isle. That scene is still in my imagination, and if that happens?….. PRICELESS and a wedding that will live a lifetime to me. Happy Father’s Day Tatay!

For weeks I’ve been thinking so deep and realizing so many things and even discovering the true meaning of friendship. I am not kind and will never be kind to a person I don’t like to be with. But there are a lot of people around me whom I considered friends and thought that they’re for keeps.

I know this is sound crazy but I have four classifications of friends (my own classification):
The almost friends, casual friends, the super friends and best friends.

March 14, 2010


That very day, was a sad day to celebrate the victory of Manny Pacquiao for me. Because that very day, I lost a friend. Got a message from my friend informing me that our College Classmate Widly was found dead. I was shocked and stunned and couldn’t believed what I just read. It was then I realized that the news might not true.


I called Joy and asked her information about her text, still was not convinced but she said it’s true. Tears won’t stop falling, when all my memories with Wildy came flashing. He was a good friend. He’s someone whom I can say the kindest one.


The saddest part  is, he died of stubbed on his heart by unknown people! How I wish that Authorities will find them as soon as possible and give justice to my friend. I condemn those who did this crime. How I want that your conscience will kill you with the crime that you did. Shame on you for killing the wrong person, the kind one, not the one that you intended to kill!


Lord, I know he is with you, I know You are taking care of Wildy…


May you rest in peace friend…


We will always miss you…