I feel so bored. It’s 12 Midnight and everyone’s sleeping. Geez I can still hear my brother’s snore.Hehe

Hmmm seems like I am missing someone. Who’s it gotta be? Well, not only just one person I think, but persons. Sometimes when I am alone, I also think of what my friends are doing or keep thinking…What’s going on with their lives? Are they OK?..It’s so sad that we can’t be together one place at a time. Maybe that’s the reason why there’s a phrase “I Miss You” huh. I don’t know, but I keep on missing these people lately. I just hope nobody changed..I hope they are still the same persons that I once knew.

So let me start…

*PEDAS- Tata, Eja and Joyee. I miss these gals so much! I can’t wait for us to share some laughs once again. And today is Tata’s birthday. Happy birthday Tata!

*Kharen- One of my Bestfriends is coming home this December. We haven’t seen each other for two years, almost and I miss her so much. I can’t wait to see her again.  I’m sure there are so many updates going on when we meet. You are very welcome to our home and you know that.

* Josephine- OMG, can you believe that? She has a baby! I can still remember when we were still in High School, together with Kharen we always tease her and told her that we’re betting that she’ll be the first one to get married from the group. Well, if fate really leads you to where you really belong…hehehe Congrat’s Pen! I can’t wait to see you too. I know you are just hmmm there…So stop hiding! Haha

* Darene- The last time I saw her was last Wednesday. But she didn’t see me because I was on the jeep. I miss you girl! Hope to see you this Christmas.

*  ‘Him’- I don’t know what’s going on with you lately. I miss you. When was the last time we hang out? I don’t know but in my opinion…you kinda changed. WHY? What’s the problem Kiddo?! Are you sick and tired of being with me? hehehe kidding. I miss our friendship and I hope you do realize that you are one of the persons that I will surely miss no matter what happen. So sad things seems to get affected by the people around us. Peer pressure? Whatever! I’m always here.

* ‘Him#2′- Come on. Why do I miss this guy? He broke my heart so many times! Nah he’s not my EX either. This guy is one of the guys that I love to hang out with. He makes me laugh at some point that no one has ever done to me. I miss our ‘friendship’. I just hope you changed..now!..for the betther of course. I am happy for you. I wonder when will he be home? I hope he’ll spend Holidays here.

* To some people in the office…I know you are not too many… I miss you as well. I hope I could visit you there some time.

And so many others…! I feel so tired typing this tuff. This is a long post already.

I miss so many people actually, you know who you are. Hope we’ll meet once again.

*PS- I quoted those guys that I miss for personal reason.

Hmmmm I am posting this picture because I am super proud of my dog my baby Pochi. This picture was taken last Friday when he was on my room. We sleep together sometime….hehehe. I love love love this pooch so much. He will turn 2 this December and I can’t wait to see him grow well, not taller, but of course cuter, more smart, loving and hopefully, he’ll be more desciplined.

Wow I can’t wait he’s turning two! I am so proud of him. Nobody can take Pochi away from me…even monsters! Haha

Who would have thought that my baby dog Pochi has fear of heights and that he has Acrophobia? Yes it’s true. Pochi is afraid of height no matter how short the distance is, he won’t dare jump. My friend even envy me for Pochi having Acrophobia. She was like “I want my dog to have fear of heights too just like him.” haha and that made my ears wider.

I don’t know if that’s normal with dogs, but I don’t care…I love him more than anyone else.

I live in an obviously ordinary, simple, complicated and not so good life at this very moment. I am happy but that’s just what you see in me outside. I am good at faking emotions. I pretend a lot of times. I can pretend to be happy, even if deep inside of me is screaming and hurting.

Many people come and go into my life. I am so lucky that I have friends whom I can depend  the sorrows, hurts, problems and heartaches I have.  However, sometimes, the person, whom you trusted and thought that will be there when you need the most suddenly changed gears. I mean, if your friend is moving away from you without any idea of what his/her reason is. I’m saddened by what’s going on, but I know life goes on…it needs to move forward.

It’s funny that of all the people I rely on, I didn’t expect that you’ll change that much. Hell I care now! 

Life’s biggest challenge in me came out of nowhere without warning. My family…I love my family, they’re my wall that protects me in so many ways, they’re my greatest position in life. I can’t stand looking at any of my family members having so much worries on what the future may bring to us. Most especially to my Mother. I know how she’s feeling this time. I just keep on telling her, that I won’t give up on this so easily. We’ll never give up…We must find ways to survive.

God didn’t give this tough challenge in me without any reasons. He knows that I can get out of this situation and live life the way it is. I don’t blame Him…I just want Him to guide me and give me peace of mind. I guess, that’s what I need at this very moment.

I just had a high blood today..so maybe I need to go to sleep now and cool down. Hehe

Have a happy weekend everyone!

Bevs