I live in an obviously ordinary, simple, complicated and not so good life at this very moment. I am happy but that’s just what you see in me outside. I am good at faking emotions. I pretend a lot of times. I can pretend to be happy, even if deep inside of me is screaming and hurting.

Many people come and go into my life. I am so lucky that I have friends whom I can depend  the sorrows, hurts, problems and heartaches I have.  However, sometimes, the person, whom you trusted and thought that will be there when you need the most suddenly changed gears. I mean, if your friend is moving away from you without any idea of what his/her reason is. I’m saddened by what’s going on, but I know life goes on…it needs to move forward.

It’s funny that of all the people I rely on, I didn’t expect that you’ll change that much. Hell I care now! 

Life’s biggest challenge in me came out of nowhere without warning. My family…I love my family, they’re my wall that protects me in so many ways, they’re my greatest position in life. I can’t stand looking at any of my family members having so much worries on what the future may bring to us. Most especially to my Mother. I know how she’s feeling this time. I just keep on telling her, that I won’t give up on this so easily. We’ll never give up…We must find ways to survive.

God didn’t give this tough challenge in me without any reasons. He knows that I can get out of this situation and live life the way it is. I don’t blame Him…I just want Him to guide me and give me peace of mind. I guess, that’s what I need at this very moment.

I just had a high blood today..so maybe I need to go to sleep now and cool down. Hehe

Have a happy weekend everyone!

Bevs

Here’s my conversation with Mark. Just in case you don’t know Mark, he was my office mate before. The reason why I’m posting this conversation is that, THIS MAKES ME LAUGH to the max even if I read it over and over! OMG I’m gonna die na! Haha

Bevs: im so tired na
Bevs: my eyes are dark2x na
Bevs: im so sleepless
Bevs:
Mark: OA mode?
Mark: your eyes is like wut?
Mark: dark2x?
Bevs: yea
Bevs:
Bevs: as in super dark
Mark: as in?
Bevs: yea
Bevs: veryness
Bevs: superness
Bevs: to the maxness
Mark: really?
Bevs: and I hate it
Bevs: im so ugly na..
Mark: really?
Mark: oh-em-gee

Bevs: it will just waste my timeness..and I don;t want to do that
Mark: ara na gne
Bevs: ok fine
Bevs: thank you nalng
Bevs: hmp
Mark: you’re so arte ha
Mark: oa-ness to the max
Bevs: omg
Bevs: u r so natak an na gd sakun
Bevs: huhhuhuhuuh
Mark: wag u ma arte ha
Mark: d bagay
Bevs: u think so?
Bevs: coz i don;t think so
Bevs:
Mark: you’re so so

Mark: so not bagay
Bevs: ok fine
Bevs: don’t chat me again
Bevs: or else
Mark: wait ha.. we’re just gonna take our break ha
Bevs: i dont careness
Mark: im so gutom na eh
Bevs: u eat ur self (more…)

Me and Polly dined at Pizza Hut for lunch. It was his treat, so I ordered Spaghetti Carbonara with softdrinks and salad. He’s ok with shake at first, but after a while he ordered another menu. So he called up the waitress and handed him the menu book.

Waitress: May I take your order sir?

Paul: Buffalo wings!

Waitress: A what sir?

Paul: Buffalo wings please.

Without any idea what he’s talking, the waitress scanned the menu and found no Buffalo wings in there. So he scanned it by himself instead.

Paul: Ah Chiken wings (hot wings)!

Watress: Smiled.Giggled.

Me: LOL!

I couldn’t stop laughing, he and the waitress laughed as well. He blushed and I really think he felt embarrassed (i just don’t know if he did). Well, I actually searched it over the net and  found out that yes, “buffalo wings” is another name for hot chicken wings. He was right in a way, it’s just that it has different name on the menu. I’m sorry Polly for laughing that hard to look at your red face!*peace*

And there’s another one…Hehe

I was thirsty, so I offered him a shake (zagu).

Me: Polly ano gusto mo? Strawberry akun.

Paul: Sago’t Gulaman.

Me: Huh?

Paul: Sago’t Gulaman.

Me: ????

Paul: Ah Buko Pandan gle.

Me: LOL

I don’t know what happened to him this day! He made me laugh because of his ‘out of this world’ words that are coming out of his mouth. Hay, I really love to laugh/smile. I just love those kind of friends.

*PS: I actually had his permission for me to post it here, so probably, he won’t feel bad at me.

I had this conversation with my friend awhile ago. She’s my friend since Elementary and I can say she’s one of those who know the real me. I just don’t want to share our whole conversation here..Just a part of what she said about me.

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AJD: childish ka gid eh

AJD: bsi ma stop kung my bf ka na

AJD: dw nd kaw submissive eh

AJD: kg suplada pa dating mo

AJD: sabagay nami man gni nga childish kaw ah

AJD: sadya pirmi!

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And it says alot isn’t it?

it’s funny to think that you love someone who never loves you back. this happens even in reality, not just on movies, i’m telling you. i don’t know if this happens to you but for me, i guess it does.

i once love someone, it’s either a like or a love, but i know that there’s something in me to him. it’s really funny that my friends asked me so many whys…and the only question that they keep on repeating on my ears is this: WHY HIM?

There is actually an answer but it’s hard to elaborate all. I guess it’s not necessary to give them the answer but I know I have…

Actually, the hardest part of it is how to deal with it. How can I not love you?

Here are the reasons why:

(more…)

We can say that we’re okay all the time. But when can’t hide those pain from the people we really know. I have some group of friends. I have one when I was in Elementary, two in High School, one in College and one on the present. It’s really good when you know that someone out there is willing to give you a helping hand when you’re in need. Just like in my experience, my friends play a great,great part of my life.

What I like about my friends is that they are willing to make me feel better and happy when I am down. Let me tell you something about my friendship with this people whom I met through my job. Our friendship is made up of different individuals with different personalities. And I want to describe them here including me.

Paul- “sabad kag sunlugero,”- corny kag inagi (by request ni Pors) hahaha

Amy-  “UP-, gahud kag ma sekreto”

Rei- “hipuson”

Merben-”kis-a lng mag banat pero pwerte!”

Joven- “tatay, sagad mag hatag advice…pangabuhi”

Sheila- ” UP, shyness factor, basta tsakto ka she!”

Bevs- “hipuson”  (wala may ma angal ha.. haha)

Porsi- “gahud, videoke queen”

*That’s why my friend Paul had  an idea of making a group name with theme song:

Paul Jyron Andonaque: amo nlng ni ang theme song ta (Make you feel better by Red Hot Chilli Pepper)

Paul Jyron Andonaque: ubrahan ta ngalan ang grupo

bevs: ano? ano name ka group?

Paul Jyron Andonaque: bot gani ah

bevs: cge panumdum

Paul Jyron Andonaque: Group Hug

bevs: Inabno!

Paul Jyron Andonaque: wala my gasulod sa utok ko

Paul Jyron Andonaque: ABS - amy bevs shela

Paul Jyron Andonaque: Pa Re Ben Jo

Paul Jyron Andonaque: PAul Rei merBEN JOven

Paul Jyron Andonaque: yut kabudlay

amy grace: ay maan..kahuluya man na kay paul man!!!

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Hahaha! Group HUG! wahahha

Once upon a time….

Eight friends namely Amy, Bevs, Beth, Sheila, Joven, Paul, Rei and Merben went to the beach and played a game, Spin the Bottle. And there were a lot of funny things, revelations that happened!

…

Amy: Beth ngaa gin sabat mo si Paul hw?

Beth: T kay palangga ko xa mo!

…

Bevs: Ams t kung mangagaluyag si Rei sabtun mo?

Amy: Gna likawan ko lng ang aftermath! Pass! Boracay Mix! (HAHAHA)

…

Paul: Rei ano ang kanta mo para kay Amy?

Rei: (Pili2x songs sa cellphone..) Say you’ll stay..don’t come and go… (SWAY by Bic Runga) (KILIG!)

…

Joven: Merbs mabalik ka pa sa Seminaryo?

Merben: Daw hindi na guro a.

…

Paul: Jov when kamo mapakasal ni Moppet?

Joven: Mga two years from now. (excited!)

…

Bevs: Shie, my chance man si “guy” sa imo?

Sheila: Hindi ko man mahambal kay wala man sa gapangaluyag…Hindi lng ko mag hmbal kung my chance or wala.

…

Shiela: Bevs t kung my miga na b nga iban c “guy mo”. Maano ka?

Bevs: Ma hurt e.

Follow up: T ngaa ma hurt ka hw?

Bevs: T kay may luyag ko mo!

…

And they all laughed all the way!

*PS- There’s a video of the game. However, I won’t be posting that here. Some parts are so confidential and I will surely die when you see it! Hahaha