I live in an obviously ordinary, simple, complicated and not so good life at this very moment. I am happy but that’s just what you see in me outside. I am good at faking emotions. I pretend a lot of times. I can pretend to be happy, even if deep inside of me is screaming and hurting.

Many people come and go into my life. I am so lucky that I have friends whom I can depend  the sorrows, hurts, problems and heartaches I have.  However, sometimes, the person, whom you trusted and thought that will be there when you need the most suddenly changed gears. I mean, if your friend is moving away from you without any idea of what his/her reason is. I’m saddened by what’s going on, but I know life goes on…it needs to move forward.

It’s funny that of all the people I rely on, I didn’t expect that you’ll change that much. Hell I care now! 

Life’s biggest challenge in me came out of nowhere without warning. My family…I love my family, they’re my wall that protects me in so many ways, they’re my greatest position in life. I can’t stand looking at any of my family members having so much worries on what the future may bring to us. Most especially to my Mother. I know how she’s feeling this time. I just keep on telling her, that I won’t give up on this so easily. We’ll never give up…We must find ways to survive.

God didn’t give this tough challenge in me without any reasons. He knows that I can get out of this situation and live life the way it is. I don’t blame Him…I just want Him to guide me and give me peace of mind. I guess, that’s what I need at this very moment.

I just had a high blood today..so maybe I need to go to sleep now and cool down. Hehe

Have a happy weekend everyone!

Bevs

“Blood is thicker than water” they say, and I surely agree.

Living in a simple life with good health each day is the one of the things that I thank God everyday. Growing up with my three (older) brothers measn so much to me. Sometimes I feel so special but sometimes I feel like an outcast. I guess it’s because they share most of the things together while I have none.

Misunderstanding, fighting over things and disappointment can never be erase in siblings. There are times when I feel so bad to one of them and I will just go inside my room, unwind and cool down. All the understanding and patience are in me, well, since I am the youngest. That’s always my part. *sigh* (more…)

This afternoon, me and my brother watched a movie of Adam Sandler’s Click. I’ve seen this movie once, but unfinished. When we watched I tend to change the channel for I’ve seen some scenes already, plus I’m waiting for American Idol. My brother would then look at me and gave me a mad face..hehehe

So we watched it till the end. I never expect that this movie is a comedy with a drama twist. How many movies of Adam Sandler that I’ve seen? Hmmm 4, I guess. Almost comedy genre. But this time, it’s all different, still comedy, but the ending is so meaningful. Or should I say the whole story itself is great!

The story as a whole speaks about giving value to the family. That we’ll give our job a second priority. In the movie all Michael (Adam Sandler) was thinking is how to be successful with his job. That he wanted a universal control for him to do what things he wants to stop, skip, rewind, forward, pause…anything that a remote control could do. So when he got a chance to have it through Morty (angel of dead:played my Christopher Walkin), he finds himself the satisfaction that he wants. He was enjoying it, without knowing that each time he fast forward everyday of his life, he’s losing. (more…)

So I have a new cute niece…

Everyone, I would like to introduce my new niece who was born March 10, 2008. Her name is Jhacel. She’s the first daughter of my brother Jason and wife Rhocel. I have three nieces now and so happy to have them…

She has the facial features mostly from her father. Only that she’s fair and my brother’s not. hehehe

Welcome to the world Jhacel..Tita is so proud of you!

Two blue bikes of my brothers and a yellow one borrowed from my cousin

One of the facts about me, is that I don’t know how to ride a bicycle. Sometimes, i envy my brothers, for they can stroll around the area just by biking. Plus they have new bikes! They even criticize me for not having the ability to do so. Huhuhu

They say biking is a good exercise, but not to me. If only, i learned how to bike when i was young, then maybe i will be able to bike all day long. *Sigh* Sometimes i keep on blaming my brothers, ’cause they didn’t teach me when we’re still young. They say, it’s just two wheels! Ok yes i know, just two wheels..but i’m so afraid of falling and could harm my legs! hehehehe…

I guess, it’s all about taking the challenge. That’s when i thought of buying a bike of my own, smaller and not so high. They used moutain bikes though, so they’re quite high for me.

Anyway, here’s the pics taken with my brothers’ mountain bikes while I’m on my cousin’s bike…

See the hand of my brother holding my bike? Hehehe he knew i might fall. ^_^

My brother again supported the bike through his legs..hehehehe (just dont mind the clothes hanging and my bro’s body! eewww! hahaha)

Holidays just ended. Christmas had past…And it’s time to count the gifts! haha

These are the gifts i got from my family and friends:

1.) A cap from Paul

2.) Another cap from Porsi

3.) An Eye Mascara from Tita Merly

4.) Lotion and perfume from Tito Ed

5.) A Handkerchief from Amy

6.) A Wordpress Shirt from cousin Babsy

Yes, All of them!  Thank you guys! You are so generous and wonderful people! hehehe

New year couldn’t be as happy when not shared with friends and of course with family. This year, though we are not that complete, still we manage to celebrate it as happy as it is. Foods are everywhere, i guess, that’s the reason why many people are having problem with their weights. Haha! Me? Well, I can see my tummy getting bigger… ^_^

I celebrated new year with my family beside me. We watched TV while waiting for the count down to 2008. About an hour to go, i went to the kitchen and arranged the table for foods. We didn’t have a lot of foods to share though. I think we had like 8 or 9 different kinds of foods.

When 12 mid night came, i could hear fireworks/firecrackers and been hearing them everywhere! We all have smiles on our faces as we hope for a happy, safe and prosperous new year to live. Another year, another lives for all of us!

Happy New Year everyone! ^_^

Foods..foods…foods

Having fun of fireworks…with my cousin.. ^_^