The mildest, drowsiest sister has been known to turn tiger if her sibling is in trouble.  (by~Clara Ortega)

It’s sad to know that you’ve changed a lot. It’s hard to realized that you are stubborn and careless. I used to say that you are my favorite, my savior and the one who understands and love me. But suddenly, because of your stupid love to her…everything seemed vanished! Words are countless for me to say WHY I don’t want you to be with her. I love you and I don’t want you to waste time loving a senseless, immature, bitch and stupid girl.

Often times you tell me to back off because it is none of my business. But I am your sister and for my love to you, you didn’t seem to listen and care. I was hurt and I am until today because for you I am nonsense and acting “plastic” towards you.

It hurts for a brother to say those things to me.. Do I have to elaborate?

When did I fail you?

It hurts to see you acting that way, as if you were fooled by a witch or should I say bitch?

I am praying to God to give you peace of mind and lead to you the right direction.

If you only knew how  much I love you..I care for you three times more than anybody.

I care and love to the three of you, not just him and him, but all.

I hope you will be able to wake up and realized that I am your sister who truly cares and loves you and understand you all the time.

I love you brother…I love you. But if you chose to live like that. I hope God won’t let you take that direction.

We just got home from our annual Family Christmas Party. We used to held it here on our compound, but for a change we decided to celebrate it on my cousins’ compound. A thirty minute ride from home. I was the host (for so many time already) and we played a lot of games. We also had great dinner! There were plenty of foods. Actually as of this moment, my stomach is still full!

We’re all happy….We also had our exchange gifts.

Christmas is a great day to celebrate with our love ones. I am really happy…I can say that all of us are happy.

Now, I can say that blood is indeed thicker that water. Celebrating Christmas with family is one memorabloe event in my life every year.

Merry Christmas everyone!

*The pics are is on my cousin’s camera, I bet she’ll upload it the next day. I’ll post some when I have them.

I live in an obviously ordinary, simple, complicated and not so good life at this very moment. I am happy but that’s just what you see in me outside. I am good at faking emotions. I pretend a lot of times. I can pretend to be happy, even if deep inside of me is screaming and hurting.

Many people come and go into my life. I am so lucky that I have friends whom I can depend  the sorrows, hurts, problems and heartaches I have.  However, sometimes, the person, whom you trusted and thought that will be there when you need the most suddenly changed gears. I mean, if your friend is moving away from you without any idea of what his/her reason is. I’m saddened by what’s going on, but I know life goes on…it needs to move forward.

It’s funny that of all the people I rely on, I didn’t expect that you’ll change that much. Hell I care now! 

Life’s biggest challenge in me came out of nowhere without warning. My family…I love my family, they’re my wall that protects me in so many ways, they’re my greatest position in life. I can’t stand looking at any of my family members having so much worries on what the future may bring to us. Most especially to my Mother. I know how she’s feeling this time. I just keep on telling her, that I won’t give up on this so easily. We’ll never give up…We must find ways to survive.

God didn’t give this tough challenge in me without any reasons. He knows that I can get out of this situation and live life the way it is. I don’t blame Him…I just want Him to guide me and give me peace of mind. I guess, that’s what I need at this very moment.

I just had a high blood today..so maybe I need to go to sleep now and cool down. Hehe

Have a happy weekend everyone!

Bevs

“Blood is thicker than water” they say, and I surely agree.

Living in a simple life with good health each day is the one of the things that I thank God everyday. Growing up with my three (older) brothers measn so much to me. Sometimes I feel so special but sometimes I feel like an outcast. I guess it’s because they share most of the things together while I have none.

Misunderstanding, fighting over things and disappointment can never be erase in siblings. There are times when I feel so bad to one of them and I will just go inside my room, unwind and cool down. All the understanding and patience are in me, well, since I am the youngest. That’s always my part. *sigh*